(If you happen to have been following this blog, I hope you will understand the sporadicness of my posts. When it is difficult to just live day to day… Well, I hope you can imagine.)

The Medications

After a breakthough of sorts in therapy — The Trauma Center at JRI — involving the sources of my PTSD (see my post “I Dreamt that I Woke up” for some information in that regard), the incredible terror of dark forms coming at me in my mind whenever I neared other people^* has all but gone!

The ramifications of this release from bondage has been no panic attacks, and I no longer need these medications:

Propranalol (brand name Inderal)
Hydroxyzine (brand name Vistaril)

I had stopped taking the Geodon but am undecided about its efficacy (and how it works) — more on that later.

I had stopped the Nardil, but I have re-started it at half the dosage — 30mg three times a day nearly killed me (see the next post, “Serotonin Syndrome”) — I am willing to try 15mg 3x day and so far so good.

More later because this is all so very important (but I am tired).

* Basically that is how it worked, it was actually a bit more complex, and, need I say, difficult to deal with.